Life looks like this: I am making coffee and building websites for my beans and rice and rent.
But I am also writing in the margins, too; sleeping a little less for only a little while. I'm creating as many unseen stories as I possibly can--just to hone my craft. I'm writing music--and sharing it. I am learning to capture light. And I'm learning to love myself through all of this because I honestly don't think I'm good yet--but I'm only twenty-three years old, so I will get good if I keep trying.
My creative work is not a hobby. I will not stop all of this poetry one day just to work in someone's cubicle. If I find myself in the sweetness of family and mommy-hood, some things may slow down, but I won't stop. I'll still be here inviting those tiny souls to learn to really love their minds--to embrace the wonder of their creativity with their creator. I'll still be here, not for attention, or fame or influence. I'll be here because I'm owning all the parts of me that I thought were nonexistent--parts that had been swept underneath my carpets of deep, deep shame. I'm here because all of those golden parts of me that are starting to peak out through my work are so full of a purpose that is so much bigger than this body and so much more interesting than the likes and comments of strangers who I may never know.
I am here for the soul that needs to know that they are loved; that the entire world may have been lying to them about who they can be. I am here for the soul that needs to know that color, and shape, and form, and words, and sound all have the power to shift things because of who they are made by.
I wish I could be in every place and in every moment and at every time. I often feel a bit inadequate when I think this way, but the truth is that if I'm not here in this hard and necessary process, then I am definitely not present where I'm supposed to be. Growth and healing and love are happening here, and that's such a good, good thing.
where I'll be next
I'm also currently in the midst a little website refresh, so my events page is not current. In the meantime, here are the dates for my next events. I truly hope to see you there. If you want to hang sooner, I'm definitely a huge fan of grabbing warm (or cold) beverages and good conversations, too. Would love to hang with sweet friends, old and new.
Also, I would love to play out of town! So, let me know if you're ever interested in sharing a bill or hosting a house show. I'd be super delighted to come and share with you and your friends. :)